This will probably be my last post as just a mom....as Lyndsey has been having what she thinks are labor pains all week - off and on - but now they're getting painful...I hope she doesn't have the baby tonight as I don't arrive until tomorrow!! If she goes into labor then Pierre has strick orders to duct tape her knees together until I arrive! I wish I was articulate enough to express how I feel about becoming a grandma...the mister said I've been a grandma for 20 years....but then, consider the source. At one point last year, when it looked like I wouldnt' be a grandma for a very long time - as L&P tried for years for this baby - I was a little upset, and told my son who just happened to be standing there that I might never be a grandma...and he said, "Well mom, you just say the word, I'll go out tonight and find someone and make you a grandma - I'd be willing to make that sacrifice for you!" He was not kidding. We had a "Come to Jesus" talk and I think I got him straightened out...he's a worry that boy. About a week later he told me not to worry, he plans on having at least 12 kids....I told him he had to be married and NOT living at home before that could happen...like I said, he's a worry.
I am thrilled at the prospect of being a grandma - of course, I'll still be the REAL mom as my daughter is just the surrogate...but that's just between you and me....that's also what my own dear mother said to me after Lyndsey was born...who knew she was right?! To have a baby around to love has got to be the best thing in the world. I can't think of anything I'd rather have - and I feel very blessed right now...there, there, don't get all choked up on me...but I truly do feel like this is a gift - a precious, sweet gift....and I'm so excited that I can't sleep - still have my appetite though - that never goes away! I have only one concern....I hope I don't faint in the delivery room....I've never seen a birth before so who knows?!? And I don't like seeing my daughter in pain - so I'll probably be like Shirley MacLain in Terms of Endearment...and I'll be screaming at the nurses to GIVE MY DAUGHTER THE SHOT!!! GIVE HER THE SHOT NOW!!! GIVE HER THE SHOT!!! Although I suspect I will need the shot more than she will.
Anyway, I'm excited and nervous and happy and scared and every other emotion you can imagine...L&P have been married almost 8 years - so I've waited a long time for this baby - and I'm positive to the bone that he'll be worth the wait...Baby Max or Baby Finn or Baby Jack...and if they must...Baby Cash. As the bag boy at the grocery store said the other day - if they have a girl next they can name her Loan...or Check....or Machine....I have no say, I'm just the grandma.
I'll post a picture as soon as he arrives from heaven - and wish me luck - being a grandma is a whole new world - contrary to what the mister thinks.